Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Dear John (final)

Dear John,

This has been a long time coming...it's been written and rewritten, stopped and placed on pause...
The love affair I have been having with you in my head has ended.
It's seems that after all of the editor's cuts, extended and alternate endings, that the original version still reigned supreme.

I guess it doesn't matter how many special effects and alternate endings you add after the fact because it's just that, after the fact.

It was like a teenage love affair filled with lessons learned valid for a lifetime. I realize that I couldn't live in the moment because I was too busy trying to catch you in a lie and so blinded by this task that I failed to see that we were living the lie.

Happily Ever After only happens in fairy tales. I was searching for a man but used to being with a boy. You were searching for a woman and used to being with a girl. I got a man and treated him like a boy. You got a woman and treated her like a toy. And so the story goes....

You made me want to be a better woman and so I shall be, but not for you or for the next man, but for me.

"They say it's better to have loved and have lost that love than to never have loved at all. I say "they" have never loved from the depths of their souls to the tips of their toes. They have never loved with their eyes closed shut and their hearts wide open. Becuz if so, they would know better than to say some dumb mess like that."

~Gotta Luv Moi, Cuz I Surely Do (Smooches)

So, like I said, I have been having computer issues and this thing didn't post when I tried to post and then when it finally posted, it posted the wrong thing... well it's be published now, so I will just leave it be... hmph.


  1. Alright girl. There are brighter days ahead.

  2. hmm if only i wasn't reading this after i posted my 10 to life