Sunday, December 30, 2012

Full Bloom

I started this blog for one purpose and by golly I am almost there!

Loving me ....

wow, what a journey it has been.
but it was well worth it.
there are some things that i will be sad about that i haven't accomplished
or that i did wrong
when i finally close my eyes for good
but learning to love myself won't be one of them

I wish that it was re-learning but my parents never taught me to love myself
how could they, when they were struggling with loving each other and themselves
probably why their marriage never had a chance of working
you can't build anything solid on a broken foundation.
especially not without love

my whole entire life, i have been chasing love
and running from it at the same time
makes a lot of sense, huh
love is patient, it is kind ... it endures all things
so what happens when the 'love' you see falls short?

you chase it but you don't do your best to catch it

just because things are, doesn't mean they have to be
i found that out by tearing down all of my walls
and taking a chance on loving me
oh how my world has changed....even with this lil cancer I have
i am the happiest i have been in a very long time
i am participating instead of watching life from the sidelines
folks around me have followed suit

so as another year is about to dawn
and more resolutions are about to be broken
i am content on doing what i have been doing these last 3 years
pushing forward while moving out of my own way
all while i continue to learn how i need to be loved
so i can fully tell my KISA when he finds me

"it's never too late to change things from what they are to what they need to, life, love, it all will change when YOU make the steps to change it"

~Gotta Love Moi, Cuz I surely do .......smooches