Luv's Life in words ~ day 28-31 REset

Luv came into this world right when the doctor said she would, quiet as a mute...she refuse to speak until she was one after that it was on and popping.. she spent most of her life making up for those 22 months of silence.

Luv was an extraordinary individual who lived an extraordinary life. She set many records and set the tone for those to follow. She took school seriously...going even when she didn't feel well. She missed 1 1/2 of school throughout her elementary career (1 day for the Bozo show and 1/2 for her brother's graduation). She had perfect attendance throughout high school and was bestowed the honor of being the 1st African American female valedictorian of her school, 2nd African American valedictorian. She loved to travel and have fun. She saw the world on a shoestring budget with the help of coupon books. Her friends and loved ones used to tease her about her fascination with coupons but always called her when they were looking for deals and discounts. She was the Queen of hook-ups.

She was the proud owner of Tweet's Sweets bakery which is renowned for it's yummy goodness across the globe. She also was the founder and director of a non-profit that served underprivileged young ladies. Luv was a proud servant of God...she boldly and fearlessly preached about God's kingdom, a kingdom many didn't believe she would inherit at the rate she used to cut up. Luv was a rebel without a cause at times which made us love her more. She was outspoken and witty, determined and persistent, lovable and loving.

She was a sister, a mother, a wife, a friend and she will truly be missed by all of those that she let into her life. She truly did an extraordinary job with living up her "dash of life"

gone but never forgotten

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My self care plan

• Wake up earlier
• Eat breakfast every day
• Write everyday whether it be blogging, journaling
• Go for a daily morning walk
• Drink 70 oz. of water a day
• Exercise for 15- 30 minutes a day
• Run 1-5 miles a day
• Read the Bible daily
• Try to meditate on a daily basis
• Juice for 30 days
• Cut out soda period/and eat junk food only when Otis is here
• Stop eating out for a week
• Get more Rest
• Make an overdue doctor’s appointment
• Stop letting the lizard man control me
• Focus on things I am thankful for daily
• Take time out for me daily
• Get back into swimming, tennis and skating

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vison board deadline is 9/17

You Want Me to do What? ~ day 24

Wow, it's hard to believe we only have 7 more days left. I am so anticipating my letter... can't remember what day it is supposed to come. Or, what I am supposed to be working on...but I have to say that I feel good.. Up until now I have looked each challenge in its face and laughed at it.. pushed, move past, jumped over, silenced fear and kept it moving..

Well today we have reached a roadblock..okay we probably reached it yesterday. ...

So, make a new friend...um yeah...not really gonna happen. I have been burnt with sharing with like minded individuals my dreams and goals with regards to my cupcake business....one of my homies went and opened up her own cupcake business. So yeah, I can't afford to share any more of my touchable goals...not yet.

But, seeing I hate to be defeated, I have decided to reach out to the woman herself, Ms. HappyBlackWoman and asked her to be my friend.. and so yeah, I'm gonna invite her out so we can meet face to face since i missed her meet up and then we can go from there..

haha #movingoutofmyownway

"sometimes you have to step back from a situation, see your fears and apprehensions for what they are and they and then step outside of the box to reach your desired result...everything ain't gots to be black and white or linear"

~Gotta Luv Moi, Cuz I Surely Do (Smooches)

It's all about the Benjamins Baby ~ Day 22

It's about to be all about the dollar, dollar bill. (SN: shout-out to me for blogging for 22 days straight ! #geauxme)

So today's challenge was to pick an area of my life that i will focus on getting on track in the next 30 days...okay that isn't what it said really but you know how we do... So I am picking finances because in less than 30 days I will be jobless ~ yay me.. I am nervous about it but i really do need some time off and I am firm in my belief that God will not leave me... it will afford me some time to do some things I should have done a long time ago.. any who, let me get focused and back to the task at hand

• Brief description of the project: I will be working on securing a job that will afford me the financial security that i need to take care of my small family (my niece, my son and myself)
• Why the project was selected: well because my job is ending and I have found that it is almost impossible to focus on other areas in life when you are constantly worrying about where your next meal is going to come from
• Goals: a better paying job
• Results: based on how many resumes i put out and on weather i go on any interviews
• Assistance needed: some help with drafting some KSAs
• Obstacles: that I am over qualified or under-qualified... i will just have to play up my experience.. and for the over qualified well...i can't worry about that
• Next steps: stay focused

"habit breeds consistency... having a plan limits anxiousness ... putting your plan in action allows you to reap what you have sown"

~Gotta Luv Moi, Cuz I surely do (smooches)

You Are the Weakest Link ~ Day 21

This one is gonna be kinda hard... well I guess not really. I have seen with my own eyes how much happier I have been since I stop spending every free moment with some folks that I love dearly. I mean I often laugh when I think about how some peeps who define themselves as being Christians really don't see how they really doing the devil's work...constantly gossiping, talking down, inciting rivalries, etc etc.

I just don't get it...I truly believe there is room for everyone who wants to be at the top to get there. I am not going to salt you down, steal your idea, stab in your back, none of that to get ahead. I don't understand the crabs in a barrel mentality.

Misery loves company... and misery hates to see other people succeed while it is still lying in the trenches.. I have to admit sometimes it's hard to be happy for people when you are steady getting pushed down...esp for peeps who in your mind don't deserve to get anything. It's even harder to be happy if you are surrounded by peeps who tell you that you shouldn't be happy for them...

This is why ever so often when I am sad and blue I go through my friend's list and phone and start deleting, blocking, etc.. I just can't waste any more time with peeps who aren't doing anything and who don't want to do better..

My Twitter fam don't bring me down... and I have deleted and blocked most FB that make my skin crawl... i guess there is one person I need to get rid of... but they don't contact me...I contact them....

"If changing was comfortable, everyone would be doing it.. nothing worthwhile comes easily..birds of a feather flock together... and bad association spoils a youthful heart... I am only as strong as my weakest link... time to do some house cleaning for real"

~Gotta Luv Moi, Cuz I Surely Do (Smooches)

Before it gets to this ~Day 20

Well it seems as I have missed a challenge....and it's probably due to the fact I was so consumed with trying to organize my crap and the crap of Chucky and Chucky's Bride. We have a lot of stuff for a 2 bedroom condo. A lot of stuff.. I am going to go buy some tins sometime this week so I can get a grasp on some of this stuff.

I really want to have a yard sale, but I have no yard.

I am going to give away my couch and sofa chair to make room for the storage tins for my bakery.

I am constantly giving away clothes and shoes, mine and the kids...

and well it may be time for me to give away my child's baby toys...I mean they are 8 years old..but me don't want too!!!! His stuff looks brand new for the most part because I made him take care of his stuff even as a baby.. but it may be time for me to give away his high chair and his bath rings and....

I am not a hoarder... I am just sentimental..

"Sometimes we allow physical things to bog and clutter our lives...the more we clean the clutter in our head, the more we will need to carve out physical space."

~Gotta Luv Moi, Cuz I Surely Do (Smooches

Kicking the Bucket ~Day 18

Now I lay me down to sleep, if I should die before I wake, I pray that I have done the following:

been loved by someone unconditionally romantically and loved unconditionally in return

had the opportunity to put Mrs. in front of my name

traveled to Egypt and Australia and perhaps even Asia

had a daughter that came from my own womb

had more good times than bad

reached financial stability

moved back home

became the parent that i so want to be for my son

strengthen my relationship with God so that I do not have to wonder if I will hear my name called from the grave

SN: oddly enough, i did yesterday's challenge and didn't even know it... i unplugged from the matrix and as soon as i figure out how to manage my fb page so i am not on there 5 and 6 hrs a day, i will be even happier

"Seeds are planted all the time, patience is needed to see if the seed was planted in such a way that good fruit will grow."

~Gotta Luv Moi, Cuz I Surely Do (Smooches)

Changing of the Tide

i have decided that what shall be will be.. i still haven't decided how i am going to downsize my personal facebook page.. seems it takes up a lot of my time. I am going to probably make it so peeps can't post on my wall...they can leave me messages. i don't want to delete it totally because it's some peeps i need to keep in touch with who are worse than me when it comes to keeping on a phone.

i feel a massive deletion coming on...most of the people talk about stuff I don't care to read about anyways..

i am in a funk...me against the world....with continue pushing