How timely was this that I found floating about cyberspace today? God is indeed truly good all of the time. I have made the first step toward healing and closing that wound I have been pouring salt on for the past 13 years. I am going to put my faith in God that He will help me with the rest.
Today was kinda rough, but not as rough as it has been. I slept most of the day away and had to make myself get up because I was determined to break the cycle of how we spent this anniversary in the Past. I took extra care in getting dress....didn't want to influence my mood negatively.
Ironically, Since I Lost My Baby and Until You Come Back to Me played on the radio without me having to pop in the cd. The same songs I played over and over 13 years ago today and for the next 6 months. I must say outside of tears here and there, I got through the songs with a genuine smile on my face.
My mood and emotions were all over the place and my tolerance level was low. I thought I was going to have to chop Chucky in his throat about 100 times. So thankful he finally went to sleep. I worked out and cheated on my diet.... that chocolate was calling my name, but after I ate it I decided that I would have much rather made me a fruit smoothie. See how things are changing.
I can do this. I will do this. Not because failure isn't an option but because when I put my mind to something the only person that can stop me, is me.
Cheers to winning. See you guys at the finish line where I will not only be cancer free but a happier, healthier me.